As much as Saturday Night Live seems like a dream job, everything I’ve read about the sink-or-swim culture at 30 Rock makes me think I could never have survived.

That culture haunted one-time Weekend Update auditioner Marc Maron for a couple of decades. Maron finally put his demons to rest on his podcast, interviewing Lorne Michaels himself and digging into the swirling forces that led Maron to audition for a job that may not have been open.

Splitsider, which usually does quick hits on comedy news, has a wonderful long-form feature on Maron’s quest.

I’d still be interested in hosting, though. Call anytime, Lorne.